have it gift wrapped
with a big frilly bow
and left on her doorstep
in honor
in hope that she'll love me back.
she makes me think
I should climb a mountain
and I could
and would
just to get her a drink
of the clearest water
she's ever had
touch her lips
yeah it's that bad.
it's because she makes me soar
on the days
[especially the days]
when my heart,
and head
can't take anymore.
it's because she can finish a sentence
I haven't even started yet.
it's because even when we
shudder and quake
shiver and break
when we've taken all we can take,
our hearts and minds
combined
rip up dictionaries,
throw the pieces to the floor,
and roll around
until the right words stick
and just as quickly as we shattered,
all the things that mattered in the first place
are back in their place
and we are whole
and holy.
and what do I do when a girl
who makes me this happy
falls into my lap and says
"see?"
and suddenly makes me see.
for the first time, I see.
I see the beauty of sun rays
pouring through my window, like a gift.
curtains there to block out the sun,
but still the light finds little places
to slip through
and I'm amazed
at how the patterns undo
me.
I see the
bluest blue sky
and it reminds me of the times
when she held me
with words
like security blankets
until I made it through
to the other side
where she was waiting
with her whole heart
held out
mine for the taking..
and I see that we can never be
except during all the hours, days, weeks,
when we are.
who knew arms could reach this far
because if you ask me,
I'll tell you
yes.
I feel her skin against mine
our heartbeats beating
not in time
but in harmony.
filling in the spots where the other gets weak
because it's a love that doesn't speak
but sings
and reminds you of your favourite song
when you were seven
the one that gets into
the empty parts of your soul
and makes you want to dance
how you dance
when no one is watching..
