regrets.

i miss my job at the preschool.. yesterday, i had bryan stop by so i could say hi..

when i walked up, the first person to see me was shawn:
"EEwishaa! hi EEwisha!" trying to pronounce it so carefully in the wrong way..
Andraya looked at me like "i think i know her.. but i'm not sure if i do."
meg got her hair cut and it's so cute.
Haley and Kiera gave me high fives.. Alyssa said "Alisha.. i love you" like she always does.
Paige said "Where did you go?" i stumbled and thought and said "i have some things happening with my family.."

and now i'm thinking.. oh god. i didn't even get to say goodbye. i just disappeared on these kids. i never even told them i wasn't coming back.. i mean i'm sure someone else did.. but i just didn't come back one day..

the truth is some of them might forget about me and one day when their, like, 17 something will make them get that familiar feeling and they'll say "oh man.. i remember in preschool i had this teacher.. what was her name? oh man.. i can NOT think of it.. what was it?"

or maybe shawn will still come up to me and say "EEwisha!! EEwisha! i love you!"